"I am what I am and I am joyful about it." (www.abraham-hicks.com)
My internal struggle feels far from over. Metaphorically speaking I am on a slippery, wet mountainside trying to reach the top. I ask myself repeatedly "how will I shed my feelings of self-doubt"? What can I do, where can I go to throw off these shackles of insecurity?
Everywhere I look there are books, TV shows, movies, radio shows and web sites about the power of intention and the law of attraction. Where do I stand in all of this? Is the power of now for everyone but me? If I am creating this madness inside and I want it to stop why won't it stop? Why can't I step out and embrace myself? I feel like I am fighting and alligator, wedged in it's jaws and unable to break free.
I sit back in my desk chair to meditate, nothing but disconnected thoughts flit through my mind. Well this is a bunch of crap, I say out loud to my office walls. I sit up with head in hands and take another sip of my now cold coffee. What the heck am I to do? OK, let's try it again, deep breath, focus on each breath, let all the chatter in my head leave with every exhale. I am not sure how it happened, but a purple light filled the inner darkness and I felt God's love. My eyes fill with tears...thank You.
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February 13th, 2008 @ 3:41 pm
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